Hello. My name is Harmony and I’m an alcoholic.
(This is where everyone is supposed to say, “Hi, Harmony.”)
I’ve spent the past several years building a platform online, establishing myself as a writer, and doing my best to be a woman who lives her life authentically. People read my work because they know that whatever I’m saying, and however I’m saying it, I’m speaking the truth.
Up until 12 days ago, my truth was that I looked to alcohol and other things to keep me sane, and why not?! My life is ridiculous. It’s a shit show. Don’t I deserve to have a glass or five of wine at the end of the day? OF COURSE I DO.
Except that, for me, alcohol isn’t something I can do on occasion or in moderation. Alcoholism is a disease, and even people who appear to have their shit together in every single way can suffer from it quietly, without anyone else knowing. I don’t look like an alcoholic, I don’t act like an alcoholic, and it is only by the grace of God that I’ve never killed someone on the road.
Today is March 10 and I am 12 days sober. This is the beginning of my journey to recovery. Be nice to me, dammit.
There is a lot I’m not ready to share yet. But I want you all to know that every single comment, message, text, email and prayer sent my way has helped me in ways I can’t even describe. Addiction feels hopeless, but knowing that people truly are pulling for me is a reminder that it is not.
I’m going to face getting sober in the same way I’ve faced every other thing in my life: one thousand percent balls to the wall. I’m going to harness the time and energy I spent on drinking and focus it on getting better. I am going to beat this.
So, if you want to join me on my journey, stick around. I’ll be making jokes about sobriety and sharing tips on how to build a support system. But, if that’s not your bag, I understand. I don’t know if it would have been mine, either, 13 days ago.
I love you all,
Harmony
Modern Mommy Madness 
You are a brave woman to face your “enemy” head on. All the best to you! My prayers will be with you.
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I am so proud of you.
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Kudos to you on 12 days of sobriety. I will look forward to reading whatever you choose to share here.
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Thank you so much for sharing so much of yourself with us. You inspire me. I delete a lot of the blog emails I’m subscribed to because I just don’t have enough time to read them all. But I read yours. And I’m always glad I do. Hugs from AZ, Brenda
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Way to go… 2 weeks! Addictions run pretty strong in my wife’s family, everything from gambling to alcohol to drugs. Only a few have sought help though. Fight the good fight… we know your struggle is real. Humor is a good way to beat it 🙂
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A friend just pointed me to your blog. I’m on Day 7. We can do it!!!!
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Harmony, I don’t know how I stumbled across your blog on Instagram, but I have been following your story for the last 12 days and I just wanted to say that your bravery and strength are amazing!!
Our family (my husband was the drinker, but I still consider us all recovering) is also in recovery….. almost 18 months sober and I can tell you that it hasn’t been easy, but each minute, hour, day and then month has been totally worth it! Even though I don’t know you personally, I will support your journey through the interweb!
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you can do it….anything worth doing takes time and inner strength…keep on truckin….
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What an inspiration for so many women who have and are struggling with alcoholism! Thank you for being so brave. The Serenity Prayer is a staple in recovery!! Love and hugs! You are worth it!!
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Day five for me. First crisis has just landed in my lap but I’m determined not to drink.
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Harmony – looks like I picked the perfect time to find your blog (thanks to Eric.) Alcoholism is in some deep shit with you working against it. After reading your post, I’m ready to tackle all demons, too. Good luck. Liked, and followed.
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Hi Harmony, I’ll pray for you. Came here after reading your “short temper parent” post on Creative Ideas from FB. I soooo relate to everything but the wine and medication. But I eat a lot of junk food when I can calm my temper and of course I’m obese! Thank you for that sincere post, thank you for let me know that I’m not the only “crazy, full of shit mom” on the world 🙂 keep strong, keep sober!
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