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Husband got a promotion yesterday!! This means I have to cook something special. I should probably avoid the oven

I have been pretty quiet this week because I’m feeling happy. That’s pretty messed up, right?  I figure no one wants to hear about how well my child is behaving. The most interesting thing that has happened is when I had to iron one of my maternity shirts and took note of the fact that it was EXACTLY like ironing a twin-size bedsheet.

This is not news worthy.

Best Laid Plans…

Yesterday was my first ultrasound (for baby #2) and I was a mixture of excited and nervous. I felt like everything was fine, but after what we went through a few months ago I knew better than to assume that the baby was perfect without proof.

My husband was off work, so we devised a plan for a RARE (like, sadly rare) lunch date before my appointment. And then … life happened. The daycare called exactly one hour before we were supposed to meet, to let us know that the Toddler had a fever. 

I threw a fit. Just for a second. Don’t judge. 

I HATE when my plans go awry. I did not want to go to the doctor by myself, carrying that mixture of emotions, with no one to talk to. Not to mention the fact that I’d been drooling over menus on http://www.urbanspoon.com all morning and daydreaming about where we were going to lunch. But I am 31 years old, and therefore an adult capable of handling herself. So I got it together and took myself to lunch.

I realized during my solo lunch hour that it’s going to be a rare occasion in the coming years for me to have any time alone. I decided to try to relish it while I can. After #2 arrives, I seriously doubt I’ll have any time to think in peace. I used to at least have the bathroom to myself in the morning while I get ready for work, but since the Toddler has learned how to open doors that has been shot to shit. 

Several hours, five vials of blood, and an ultrasound later, I learned that #2 is perfect. He or she will arrive in August. Something about seeing the heartbeat of your second child is even more profound than your first. Maybe because you know how deeply you are going to love them, and already do.

I arrived home at 5 pm to a frazzled husband and a crying child who both needed me, and thanks to my afternoon of silence, I was prepared to handle them both.


P.S. I am OBSESSED with figuring out how to re-create the tomato soup that is served at Panera Bread. I’m literally losing sleep over it. I am considering calling to see if they sell it by the gallon.

Confessions.

I have some things I need to get off my chest …
I may be obsessive-compulsive.

I live much too far away from my mother.

I weighed myself this weekend because my husband is on a DIET, damn him, and he left the bathroom scale out. I was so angry when I saw the number, it took a good 15 minutes for me to calm down.


When I remembered how much I want the child that I’m growing inside my belly, I wasn’t mad anymore.
My corporate job is, unfortunately, a negative kind of job. I work in insurance claims. Everyone bitches. People call me and bitch. The people sitting around me bitch. Sometimes I think the negativity sinks into me and then it somehow becomes a part of me, despite my best efforts. 

I want to see the best in people.

Yesterday when I dropped the Toddler off at daycare he cried and held on to my leg and I felt like the worst mother in the world. I wanted to call and tell my boss that I quit. Then I thought about what my husband would do and say, if I did did just up and quit my job, and I somehow found the inner strength to walk out and go to work.
I cried during the drive in to the office.
Country music causes me to cry. But I have to listen to it every morning, because they don’t talk, they actually play music. I cannot STAND talking on the radio. It’s worse than ruining my eye makeup. So … I’ve gone country.
I’ve noticed that my husband has a lot less to say when I’m pregnant.  

The Truth.

I like to think that I’m a person who can handle an occasional dose of honesty. 

I appreciate people who can tell it like it is. It means that they aren’t afraid to speak their mind. I like that. Sometimes people who have that quality tend to be labeled “abrasive” or “rude.” A lot of the time, I get along just fine with them. Why? Because my label is”nice.” 

HOW BORING. 

Now, I’d love to believe that everything I do and say is the right thing at the right time, and all my decisions are sound … but the truth is, I am kind of a screw up. I need people in my life who can gently point me back in the right direction if needed. Sometimes it’s hard to hear that you messed up/look like death/are being an idiot, but the worst thing in the world is for the people who love you to let you run amuk without saying a word until it’s too late.

This post is just a general thank you to all the people in my life who put me in my place when I need them to.

Illness Strikes

Today marks the 4th consecutive day of the toddler’s sickness. He seems much better, but I’ve had almost all of the Yo Gabba Gabba I can handle.

It’s our own fault. We discovered he likes the show so we (husband) went nuts and bought him:

1. Two Yo Gabba Gabba DVD’s
2. A music CD
3. Small Yo Gabba Gabba figures
4. Dancing Broby doll

Four straight days of Yooooooooooooo Gabba Gabba and I’m OVER IT. Seriously.