Today I joined a mommy group.
I have been a stay-at-home mom for over two years, but it’s taken this long for me to realize it was time to let go of the working world — at least for now. For so long that was who I was, a woman with a career. I wasn’t sure where it was going, but I felt like it was going somewhere.
I quit my job because I wanted to raise my children. But that doesn’t mean that the decision was easy, and it doesn’t mean that I don’t still have second thoughts about that choice. I always heard about how stay-at-home moms “lose themselves” and feel “unappreciated” and and on and on, but never quite understood any of it until recently. NOW, I get it. Kid #3 rocketed me full-force into stay-at-home-mom overload. Taking care of this house and the people in it consumes me. I give and give and give and they take and take and take and I very rarely get thanked. Which is fine, except that it’s not, because I’m being buried alive. I could feel it happening and I didn’t like it, because for one thing … I’m more than just a mommy. The other parts of me are just as important, and I’m not going to let them slip away.
I am a lady of action, so I mulled this over for awhile. What can I do to make my life easier? What would make my days more bearable? And I decided that what I need is for Husband to be home more. Unfortunately, that isn’t an option right now, because this is a season for him to further his career. So then I decided we need to either be wealthy enough to afford a nanny, or I just need to make more friends.
That is when I decided to join the MOPS group (Mothers Of Preschoolers) in my area. I’m a little apprehensive, because the working world and the people in it are so vastly different than the non-working world. I’m not sure if I’m ready to let go of it and make the full crossover. Will these people expect me to craft? Or sew?! Because I do not. I also do not Pinterest. Or host themed parties.
Hopefully, I will find at least one other person who is not only unwilling or unable to let go of her non-mommy self, but also has a husband who works insane hours so maybe we can do cool things with our normal children.
See how I have it all planned out? I’ll let you know how it goes.