This morning I was awakened once again at 4:17 a.m. by my toddler. And the blur continues.
Then I read this blog post by one of my favorite bloggers, Glennon Melton. Man, I love her. She sounds intense, like in person she might stress me out? But her writing … I just love.
You should read what she had to say this morning. All our children want in this world, really, is for us to be HAPPY. I am a happiness-seeker and have always tried to “feed my soul” when I feel it being emptied, but it’s true that once you become a mother people place all these extra expectations on you. You’re labeled selfish or self-involved if you feed your soul too much. You should be focused more on your children — YOU’RE A MOTHER NOW. There’s no time for you anymore. Usually the people who place that kind of crap on you have forgotten how to feed their own souls.
There are plenty of selfish parents out there who don’t know how to really love another person, and those people can’t be lumped together with people like me who just don’t want to disappear into the blur. Sometimes I feel like the only thing saving me from being sucked into the vortex is this blog, and I might be hanging onto my happiness and my SELF with my fingernails … but I’m hanging on. I have a life to live, and it’s MINE. My children are a part of it, a big part. But they are not my everything. My husband is my partner in all things, but he is also not my everything.
That does not make me self-involved. It makes me a real person with real interests other than my kids … even though they really are all I talk about. So today I encourage any woman reading this to think about what makes you truly happy, and DO IT. If you can’t do it for yourself, do it for the people who love you and want you to be HAPPY.