I am vocal about my recovery from addiction because I want to put a face to the struggle.
I am a mother, a wife, a friend, and a daughter. I don’t know how to cope with crazy amounts of emotional stress. I just don’t. I’m not a crier. I don’t shut down. I don’t park myself on the couch for days. I drink and take pills — well, I did — and I push forward. Some people, like me, have a hard time. We stuff our feelings down. We don’t ask for help. We pride ourselves on our ability to take life by the horns and OWN IT.
Except the truth is, our addictions actually own us. An addiction can be drugs or alcohol, but it can also be shopping, gossiping, gambling, or eating. Don’t judge an addict without looking closely at yourself first.
39 days. I’ll never stop counting.