To Be That Perfectly.

“Do not wish to be anything but what you are, 
and to be that perfectly.”

                                        – Saint Frances de Sales

I came across this quote today. It really hit home with me because lately I’ve been having a little bit of a crisis. Not like a serious life crisis — nothing like that. More like a crisis of self.

I’ve been helping my mother get some of her old paperwork organized and I’ve had the pleasure of sorting through bills and report cards from my stint at college. I use the word “stint” because I was one of those in-for-two-semesters, out-for-two-semesters types. I went to a private Christian university and after racking up an obscene bill there, I had a major quarter-life crisis one semester from graduation and ended up moving home, quitting college and meeting a hot boy who smoked and played pool … my future Husband, who had also dropped out of college. 

Finally, seven years after finishing high school, I graduated from Louisiana State University with a degree in Mass Communication. It exhausts me just to type all of that. I can’t imagine how my parents must have felt watching it.

Today I was sitting at the dining room table staring at all the stacks of stuff, thinking to myself how many thousands of dollars were poured into an education that I’m not even currently using. I am a stay-at-home mom. That’s what my job is. I get paid exactly zero dollars. And that’s when I came across that quote, written on a scrap of paper in my mother’s script: “Do not wish to be anything but what you are, and to be that perfectly.”  

I know down deep in my soul I am doing what I’m meant to do. No question. So I stood up, and fixed my ponytail, and had a sandwich. When TWO woke up from his nap I told him, “Asher, I am your mother and Maverick’s mother and Daddy’s wife and I wish to be nothing else at this time. I’m going to do the best job of it today that I possibly can.” 

He smiled and said “WHEE!!!!” 

And just like that … life is perfected.

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