Thanksgiving nearly killed me.

Kids + breakables + elderly canines = me wanting to hide in a closet with a bottle of vodka. But, we managed to make it through the experience without divorcing or making a trip to the E.R., so I guess have no choice but to count it as a success.

As I stared out the dirty window of our van yesterday on the long drive home, I pondered two things. First, I have limits on how much stress I can handle and I think this trip might have pushed me a wee bit too far. I plan to pull back a little this week and focus on self-care so I can pace myself and avoid a crash and burn before Christmas.

Second … I no longer have a baby. I mean, duh. BUT YOU GUYS. I REALLY DON’T HAVE A BABY ANYMORE.

It’s okay, roll your eyes. I’ve been in denial about this even though all signs point to toddler. There’s no ignoring the fact that my “baby” will be 18 months old in a few days. It’s just going by so fast. The days are hard, and sometimes long, but that third kid really turned everything warp-speed. How is it almost Christmas again? Where did the past year go? Am I really soaking it up like I’m supposed to?


What really got me was when we took a harried family picture on Thanksgiving Day and I later realized that I was holding a child half my size like a sack of potatoes.

20141127_121142-1 20141127_121122-1(1)Harmony, your baby is not huge. You keep going on and on about how heavy and big your baby is. SHE’S NOT A BABY. THAT IS WHY SHE’S HUGE. AND HEAVY.

I have three walking, talking children. My baby times are over, lost into the blur. I’m thankful. And I’m sad. But mostly just disoriented.

6 thoughts on “Fast-Forward.

  1. Awww! I feel the same way. My “baby” will be 18 months in 2 weeks. I keep trying to shove him into onsies rather than big boy clothes. Where did the time go? LOVE your family photos too. I don’t have a single photo of us all posing pretty for the camera. Someone is always crying or my 5 yr old is sticking out his tongue.


  2. Awwwww!!! I’m still in the baby stages and I’m cherishing and loving every minute, but like you I feel that fast forward button has been pushed too. When did he turn 9 months?! He’s already trying to walk and I’m looking at other people’s newborns like when was he ever that tiny and squishy?!


  3. Mine are 19 and 20 and coming home in mere weeks for Christmas! I cannot wait! Surely it was just last year that as I was changing my youngest for the very first time I was thinking “man, your older sister’s diapers are HUGE.” He was a newborn, his sister was 19 months.

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