Hello. My name is Harmony and I’m an alcoholic.
(This is where everyone is supposed to say, “Hi, Harmony.”)
I’ve spent the past several years building a platform online, establishing myself as a writer, and doing my best to be a woman who lives her life authentically. People read my work because they know that whatever I’m saying, and however I’m saying it, I’m speaking the truth.
Up until 12 days ago, my truth was that I looked to alcohol and other things to keep me sane, and why not?! My life is ridiculous. It’s a shit show. Don’t I deserve to have a glass or five of wine at the end of the day? OF COURSE I DO.
Except that, for me, alcohol isn’t something I can do on occasion or in moderation. Alcoholism is a disease, and even people who appear to have their shit together in every single way can suffer from it quietly, without anyone else knowing. I don’t look like an alcoholic, I don’t act like an alcoholic, and it is only by the grace of God that I’ve never killed someone on the road.
Today is March 10 and I am 12 days sober. This is the beginning of my journey to recovery. Be nice to me, dammit.
There is a lot I’m not ready to share yet. But I want you all to know that every single comment, message, text, email and prayer sent my way has helped me in ways I can’t even describe. Addiction feels hopeless, but knowing that people truly are pulling for me is a reminder that it is not.
I’m going to face getting sober in the same way I’ve faced every other thing in my life: one thousand percent balls to the wall. I’m going to harness the time and energy I spent on drinking and focus it on getting better. I am going to beat this.
So, if you want to join me on my journey, stick around. I’ll be making jokes about sobriety and sharing tips on how to find a good A.A. meeting. But, if that’s not your bag, I understand. I don’t know if it would have been mine, either, 13 days ago.
I love you all,