A Nice Reminder.

I am alone a lot of the time. I’m hormonal and exhausted. I am easily overwhelmed and find myself questioning my decisions a lot. So after a really tough stretch of mothering, I came across this on the internet and it was exactly what I needed. I’m not sure who the author is, but it sure helped me get through the remainder of my day. It’s good to be reminded that I was created to do this job, and I do it well. I would welcome anyone who questions my abilities to come take my place for 3 days.

No … really. Come on. I DARE YOU.

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A little boy asked his mother, “Why are you crying?” “Because I’m a woman,” she told him.

“I don’t understand,” he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, “And you never will.”

Later the little boy asked his father, “Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?”

“All women cry for no reason,” was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked,

“God, why do women cry so easily?”

God said, “When I made the woman she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed.”

“You see my son,” said God, “the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart — the place where love resides.”

Innards.

I have a lump that might be a hernia. I won‘t know for sure until I see my doctor this week. Basically I’m FREAKING THE FREAK OUT and keep telling Husband to be nice to me because it feels like my innards are trying to come outwards.

THESE CHILDREN HAVE DONE A NUMBER ON MY BODY AND THIS IS THE LAST ONE. NO MORE.

All of this upsets me a tiny bit. 

Mmm.

There are so many things I don’t know. Like how to get ONE to stop using ugly words and how to get my Husband to stop doing that thing he does when I get mad, that only makes me more mad.

What I DO know is, the Britney Spears station on Pandora combined with homemade chocolate chip cookies make everything better.

 Now instead of thinking to myself, “What is wrong with everyone?!” I’m thinking, “What is wrong with everyone?! AND DAMN, THESE COOKIES ARE TASTY.”

2013.

This year the holidays, the kids, the pregnancy, and life in general, have kind of overwhelmed me. And the idea of having to resolve to do another thing on top of what I’m already doing made me not want to get out of bed this morning … so

I resolve to do the following in 2013:

1. I will have a healthy baby. It will be my last.

2. I will ignore the people who continue to tell me Boy … you’re going to have your hands full when that baby gets here.” YES, I KNOW. I have days when I’m not sure my hands can hold ONE MORE THING and I think to myself, “WHY ARE WE HAVING ANOTHER KID?!Pointing it out is supremely unhelpful. Do you know what is helpful? For someone to say You’re going to do great.” Because I am. I got this.

3. I will remind myself that I got this. Whatever “this” happens to be at the time.

4. I will not forget that my Husband comes first. He has been in my life for almost 10 years and without him I would have none of the things that bring me insurmountable joy.

5. I will have fun in the face of chaos, clutter, disaster, and endless messes.

There will be no resolutions to bake more bread (I have never baked bread in my life) or learn a new skill (like knitting, which I failed miserably at) this year. I will not be crafting. I will not be sewing. I will not be gardening. 2013 will be all about survival. 

I RESOLVE TO SURVIVE!